wow i haven't written here in over a year. i'm in the carrels of ISR studying for my two exams tomorrow and taking a little break. not going to say much. but just recently i've needed to express myself. so here i go.
maaahhh here i thought i had a good plan for the future, one that was about God's kingdom but then letting me still be a little selfish. But it seems like i cannot have those dreams or that plan, so this song is comforting me right now... i've already cried as much as i could, can't waste anymore time; time to get to work and trust that God's plans are better than my own, even though it is sooo hard for me to see right now. i guess i'm scared that he'll call me to do something i really don't want to. but i have to surrender....Lord Help Me!!!
Surrender By Barlow Girl
My hands hold safely to my dreams Clutching tightly not one has fallen So many years I've shaped each one Reflecting my heart showing who I am Now you're asking me to show What I'm holding oh so tightly Can't open my hands can't let go Does it matter? Should I show you? Can't you let me go?
Surrender, surrender You whisper gently You say I will be free I know but can't you see? My dreams are me. My dreams are me
You say you have a plan for me And that you want the best for my life Told me the world had yet to see What you can do with one That's committed to Your calling I know of course what I should do That I can't hold these dreams forever If i give them now to You Will you take them away forever? Or can I dream again?
Surrender, surrender You whisper gently You say I will be free I know but can't you see? My dreams are me. My dreams are me
Surrender.....
Wednesday, 19 March 2008
Hello world... wow i haven't been on xanga in forever and i have no idea how to use all this new stuff. well, so it is spring break and haven't really done much. just sleeping and recovering. but this year has been really good spiritually. i feel like God has really grown me a lot and is still growing me. hehehe pretty excited and scared about it. but learning to really trust everything to be in His hands. hmm.... school.... ah..... i need to be a better student. shhh don't tell my parents. but i really am becoming more and more interested in psychology and wondering how and where God can use me in this field. yes.... so life is good because God is good. that's all that i really have for now have a blessing Easter peace
Thursday, 27 September 2007
mmmmm what has happened this week ooooo ISR won mini o's for the first time in ten years. wow!!! yay!! for ISR!! did really well on my MCB exam but then not so well i think on my psyc exams. sigh.... one more exam to go then i won't have exams for about 2 weeks, sigh. what a short break. mmm..... what else.... i tend to be tired all the time. is that bad?? sigh..... does anyone even still use xanga?? lol welp this post was kinda random and blah. hohoho peace out peeps
hohohohoho!!!! Sarah is sooo happy. today or yesterday was lobster day in the dorms. hohoho. yay!!! ate 2 lobsters and a pair of extra claws, so to me that is 2.5 lobsters. hehehe. makes me happy. and it was so much fun with small group too. oh man we piled all the shells and stuff onto ken's tray. it was a giant giant pile of reddness and people would walk by and be like OMG!!! who ate all of that. it was funny too cuz i was sitting next to ken and it could look like my tray, hehehe just imagine. hehehe. or maybe i'll ask ken for the pics, since we took some. oh man we are some dorks. whatever. i love them. teehee just wanted to make a document of this day. teehee man i think my post was really random. sigh i guess this is how i think this late at night. maybe i shouldn't be doing my hw this late...... lol
Wednesday, 05 September 2007
oh man it has been forever since i have posted. that's ok well it is a new semester, new classes, new small group and many more new things. its good. i'm excited yet scared, just have to trust in the Lord. i think semester is going to be very very busy, am taking 18 hours more than i have ever taken and my psyc research can go up to like 9 hrs a week. but it is ok i think i will learn alot and i like the projects that i'll be working on. my classes... oh man pre-med... am i really cut out for it?....it seems to be ok for now but then we'll see how it goes. for small group i am excited. i like a small small group. i hope that we can really be a family and really help each other grow and know Christ better. That is my goal for this year to really know Jesus. i feel like i dont know that part of God. i know God the father and the holy spirit but Jesus, who is suppose to be my Prince and best friend, i feel like he is not. i know about him and what he has done but then personally, not really. Like i run to the father but then not to Jesus. I want to grow and know him better. living in isr, i like it but i think i am as much of a hermit as last year.... maybe a little less.... but then maybe a little more because i live with gloria now. lol. okie dokie... i guess that is all. puahahaha
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